United States Marine . What's more badass than that ?
Its true what they say time heals all wounds… Its been months since we’ve been together and when I thought I couldn’t live without you I made it out becoming a better person. But I find myself sometimes just thinking what if you never did all those things that drove us apart. I’d still feel the butterflies in my stomach everyday I’d hear your voice or I’d remember the feeling of what its like to be in love. I could be angry with you for all you’ve done but I don’t think we were ever supposed to last. I don’t miss you or us.. I miss the love I had, it was so innocent and pure. So innocent that everything inside of me truly believed we would last forever. And now I feel like I’m destined to be alone, I don’t think I could love like that again.
This deployment fucking sucks
I’m sitting here going back to all the posts I wrote about that breakup.Its crazy how time can change everything. Couple months ago I was devasted because of what happened between us, and now look at me I’m over it. I accepted the fact that being over what happened doesn’t mean I won’t think about him or miss him or even sometimes get upset. Being over it is more like accepting the fact that he was given a choice and he made it. Nothing more nothing less, and forgetting the what ifs because I will never go back to that again. As much as my heart tries to find another way to forgive him my soul has already made the decision. He fooled me twice thinking the years we spent together was something special but in reality I was the only one in love. The one thing I love the most about how it ended is that I don’t hate him for it, he opened my eyes to something bigger. Its Apr30th.. I’m laying in bed and I can finally say I’m happy and I actually mean it.
A guy to go get breakfast with, watch some movies with, travel the world with, do the stupidest shit with, we could fuck around, and someone who’ll fuck me good. We could be bestfriends, and secretly I’ll be in love with you but I won’t tell you cause I like the rush.. Years will pass on and we’ll both find our soulmates cause that’s just how life goes. But I’d be happy that I got to have you for a little while.
I’m over him, but its crazy how I told him before we broke up all we needed was to ride it out for 3 more months and we would have been together and look what happened now